Yes, No, Maybe So

So, I've always known that I tend to procrastinate. I'd love to stop, but not really sure how. For now, I pray. However, I've also recently realized that not only do I tend to procrastinate but I can be very indecisive. I'm sure the 2 are somehow linked. I HATE them both! I should really read a book about these things... but I'd have to make sure it was a book by a trusted author. I'd hate to read a book by some weirdo & then have to unlearn all the crap that I just read. So deciding on the proper book would be the first challenge... hence the indecisiveness. Then I'd have to forgo the procrastination & actually make it to Amazon to purchase the book... I'm telling you, it's a vicious cycle!

On a serious note... I have a huge decision in front of me that I have to make. I've been struggling w/ this for several months now. Procrastination has pushed me to the point that I have to make the decision pretty soon. Now I'm freaking out because I want to make the right choice. That's really  the root of this indecisive thing... fear. Fear that I will make the wrong decision & then everything will be all messed up. Fear that I will make the decision that is not God's perfect will for my life (that's the ultimate fear). Fear is the opposite of faith so I know that the fear is wrong! I'm just trying to keep it real here... 

Of course the hubby has it all figured out. I'm pretty confident that what he is saying is the direction to go in... now it's taking the leap & actually committing to that step. That however would require a firm decision. ARGH!

There is a peace knowing that God already has it all figured out! It's my little pea brain that needs to get it together. 

A girlfriend reminded me of a scripture that has helped me keep things in perspective... 

I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord. They are plans of peace and not disaster, plans to give you a future filled w/ hope. (Jeremiah 29:11) 

I am comforted knowing that God already knows every decision I'll ever make... including ALL of the mistakes (He knows everything... right?). He already knows the master plan & has a designated purpose for my life. 

Now I just wish He'd fill me in on everything so I know what to do next... which I know He will. Step by Step... isn't that what faith is all about?!? If He filled us in on the whole plan why would we need to rely on Him for all the answers. I just need to let God be the sweet Heavenly Father that He is... guiding me step by step through all the lessons & experiences He has for me. 

Wow, I feel a lot better than I did when I first started writing this blog!

I'm telling ya... this blog thing is like therapy :) 

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In case you were wondering... 

the middle babe stayed on green 2 days in a row this week. Going for day 3 today!! It's a record! We're going for a green week. Come on girl, you can do it!