Sunday, September 5

letting my guard down

Some times when I’m feeling overwhelmed or really stressed I close my eyes and I picture Jesus. I see myself walking up to Him as He wraps His loving arms around me. I bury my head in His chest. I'm wrapped up, safe in Him as He kisses the top of my head and let’s me know everything is going to be ok. Sometimes I even feel the wings of the Father engulf us.

Keep me as the apple of your eye; Hide me in the shadow of your wings.
(Psalm 17:8)

I know He’s always with us. That visual means so much to me though. I’m so safe there. So secure.

The security & love found in God is like no other. I know that. I feel it. I’m confident in it.  I’m also realizing that it is necessary for me to rest in the strength of my husband too. Today’s woman is so strong and independent. We have fought so hard to find our place in society… to become equal to man. I think in many ways we have fought so hard to get from one end of the spectrum that we have found ourselves at the complete opposite end. I long to be the woman I read about in scripture…  who is strong and self-confident, but also able to let her guard down and rest in the strength of her man. There is something very liberating and satisfying in that. There is a demand on women these days to be independent, strong, self-sufficient, and never weak. To admit weakness and find strength in a man is almost taboo.

Do you agree?

I feel like there is a feminine side in all women that longs for that… to be taken care of and protected. That’s why the old time romance novels still intrigue our modern day women. 

Well the hubby & I are faced with a decision. One that I have fought long and hard to oppose him on. I’m tired of wrestling it though. I’m exhausted spiritually & I’m exhausted emotionally. I’m raising my white flag. I still don’t feel like I am completely on board yet, but I have made my mind up that I’m willing to let go & move forward with this and trust him… and I’m also at a new place where I know… no matter what… It’s going to be ok.

If we fail, we fail together. Thankfully we serve a God of second chances. If we succeed, we succeed together. We are team.

Do you have any thoughts on how marriage/family has changed over the years?


We are spending our long weekend out of town with my in-laws. We are in the Appalachian Mountains. So beautiful. There is a fall chill in the air that has me extremely excited about this next season… I hope this little chill makes it down the mountains and over to my neck of the woods soon.
I pray you have a wonderful holiday weekend.


  1. I don't really know how to word it but I fully understand exactly what your trying to say and exactly where your at. David and I are going through some similar stuff right now and I had some similar thoughts.

    Its hard when your married as a woman sometimes to find that balance with your husband. Were making some similar changes in our life. God has us on an unexpected path and journey.

    Stick in there God has a plan and sometimes it just takes us a while to see the fullness of it :)

    Love you girl!


  2. I love this! It's exactly where I'm at right now and knowing I'm not alone makes me feel so much better :)

  3. I fully trust my husband and no matter if I sometimes disagree on how to go about certain things, I know that what he decides, he's arrived at that decision with the well-being of the family in mind. The good thing, though, is that we do talk things over and sometimes he gives in and sometimes I do. ...and like you said "If we fail, we fail together. Thankfully we serve a God of second chances. If we succeed, we succeed together. We are team."

    Have a great Labor Day weekend!

  4. Kasie, I totally agree with what you wrote. Praying that God will bless you in your willingness to trust your husband.


  5. This is such a great post. I totally agree with your thoughts too.

    Have a wonderful Labour Day weekend!

  6. My thoughts aren't very well-formulated on this post, but I agree for the most part. :)

    Have a great time in the mountains - awesome time of year to be there!

  7. I completely agree with everything you said in this post. I have the same vision of myself wrapped in God's arms... it brings me so much comfort and peace, and I can't wait until the day I am in his presence!!

  8. I totally agreed with and enjoyed this entire post!


    My favorite part is where you say that "if we fail, we fail together".

    It could be more true!

    Best wishes from one blogger to another,


  9. I love your story about Jesus holding you - I've had that experience a few times and it is like no other. It's just amazing. Great post.

    xo Erin

  10. Hello,
    I"m a mid-40s wife and mother raising 4 children, ages 11 to 3. Your blog entry is wonderfully transparent. I "hear" what you're saying as well.

    There is a WONDERFUL ministry/blogger out there. Her name is Courtney and she blogs over at Women Living Well. I would encourage you, if you haven't already found her, to head over and begin to dig into her posts and especially her videos. I think you might appreciate her desire to strengthen marriages biblically. You can find her at;
    Click on the "website" link at the top and you'll find some of her videos there as well.

  11. Oh, and Courtney was on the Rachel Ray show, on a segment about "1950s housewives." You'll find that video on the above link, on the upper left side of the page. It's a 2 parter, so don't miss the 2nd video. You are NOT alone in what you posted. Like I said, I hear you. ;) Clearly, many other women do as well.

  12. Hey Lady,
    You know in today's society women are told to have your career, then get married, then raise your kids, you don't need a man. For me, I see myself as the woman in proverbs. No I don't always hit the nail on the head...but that's what I strive for. That woman in proverbs is well rounded. She knows her know. I remember that I had a desire to stay home with the kids etc... and Hubby was raised with a mom that worked outside of the home. I remember praying and Hubby came to me and said you know..if you want to...feel free to stay home with the kids. Yes, things were wise...but it all worked out. Of course people had their have a college degree and you are home with the kids..or how will ya'll make it on one income...etc...etc...but we did and we are and to God be the glory..and believe you me...hubby and I made some terrible decisions..but you are right God is the God of second chances...and we were never forsaken and we've never come close to begging bread. I've learned to trust God and my husband as he follows Jesus! I love you and I feel you on this one!